Day 6 - Visions of BREAKING the fast

weight: 209

Today was mentally tough for me. I had visions of breaking the fast between the hour of 12:00 - 1:00 am. Somehow I rationalized if I eat it won't count. (Yeah right!) I've tried to start the cleanse a few times after my first successful fast for 22 days and I always broke it after 3 or 4 days. Last night I was determined not to let all of my hard work 5 days go to waste.

So, I remembered how bad I felt after breaking:


- Regretful & Sad
- I didn't even like the bad food I was eating
- Like a failure & wanting to eat more as a result

What wasn't I doing enough of to trigger these bad feelings? Drinking my LAs (lemonades). When my cravings started to hit hard, I realized I was than 1/2 through my LA quota for the day & needed to catch up. I CHUGGED my lemonade hoping it would kill my cravings...Nope. I was having visions of craisins & walnuts by now. Haha. So I made my Laxative tea, sipped & went to bed.

As result of the fast, I've discovered the joy of the Internet and doing work I've procrastinated on (what else is there to do right?) LOL